Happiness is 2-feet tall and hope if his smile.

I was real scared to conduct this interview but somehow managed to go with it. We were at Kar. Ma Coffee looking at baby Liam’s super cute poses. After a successful photo shoot there we go for the interview and Manoj was all set to tell the true story – his story.

The birth of a new child is one of the happiest moments in any couples life. Soon to – be – parents eagerly wait for a new member in the family.For Manoj Kumar KC, it was filled with mixed emotions as he lost his soul mate, but gained a beautiful baby boy - Liam as a family.He was looking forward to spending his life with his new born and single most wife. And then?  Gone. All gone.

The most painful moments of life are those which comeunexpected. Few events in life, as losing your significant other are very painful. Your grief is exceptional because no other person had the same relationship that you had with your spouse. At times you may be uncertain if you even have the energy or desire to try to heal. Manoj Kumar KC, lead guitarist of the band 1974 AD had to face somewhatsimilar kind of situation. Not even in his wildest dream might had he thought that the one of the best days of his life would turn out to be the darkest one too.

After two years of tying knot, Manoj and Prerana decided to have their first baby. When they found out they were expecting, the parents -to- be were completely delighted. Manoj shares “I still remember, Prerana came out with the pregnancy test kit saying – testing, testing, 1, 2, 3. And when the result was positive we were overjoyed. I had that kit for quite a few months but it got misplaced after the earthquake.”

Prerana’s pregnancy was all sound and smooth. There were no any complications. Rather she was glowing and looked her best than ever before. In the early morning hours of June 9th, Manoj and Prerana welcomed their new born. Prerana, had seemed fine prior to admission to hospital, but then during her delivery she went into an emergency condition involving massive blood loss and hence required a life - savingsurgery. The surgery turned out to be unsuccessful and the new mother rested the battle of her life leaving everyone far behind.

It should have been a moment he shared with his wife, but Manoj was left to cradle his new born son alone. But as they say –sorrow prepares you for joy, Manoj is enjoying each and every moment with his 20 months babyboy Liam.Liam is the reason behind everyone’s smile. There is no doubt that he misses Prerana every day and in every bit of life but he says he is not someone who would go into depression as he has their son, his family and off course Prerana’s family to look after.He is a very responsible father to his son and caring son to his parents and knows his duties well. Further he adds; “Everything is not as it seems to be. People see and think it is very easy for me to move along. For me life is not very easy, but I am just taking it along and trying to make it little easy. I have so many goals to fulfill. So yeah I need to get this life going.”

Believe in me, this was the most difficult interviews of my career till date.I had whole lots of questionspuzzling in my mind, but I didn’t dare to ask him though he didn’t deny to the questions that I asked him.I know this is not good but I was really reluctant to ask anything about his wife. But to my surprise, every time I asked about Prerana he answered to me and he had a smile on his face as he said he was very proud to speak about his wife. He further added that, the more he talked about his wife the more he felt her and hadmade him realize that all this makes him stronger as a person.

Among so many things running in my mind, I dared to ask him if Prerana’s absence haunt him, to which he answered something like this; “Off course,every time. It is natural that you miss a person who was your heart and soul throughout your life, no matter how brave you may say you are. She and her memories will continue to be part of me.But I miss her the most when I see Liam doing all his crazy stuffs.I know she is looking at us from somewhere far behind but I wish she could have seen Liam doing all these. Also whenever I see someone posting their happy family picture with their wife and kid I miss her a lot and wish I too had a same.”